Do I really wanna know the answer to this?

I haven't been on blogger in forever, so it seems strange to just pop back on here after months. But...I've been BROODING all day and I need to pose this query.

"What is wrong with me?"

The reason I ask, is because I'm slowly coming to realize that I don't really have anyone that I'm really close to. Some people have lots of friends, some people have a few really close friends, I feel like I just have acquaintances, or former friends, or ex-friends--or whatever. I feel like people don't really feel that close to me. I don't get asked to be in people's wedding party, or asked to be their child's godparent, or even invited to gatherings and occasions. So I ask again--what is wrong with me? Am I pushing people away? Am I a bitch? What is it about me that repulses close friendships? See why I fear the answer...